Tuesday, 30 December 2008
Religiously I have taken 20 minutes or so each and every day to listen to a self-hypnosis tape. When Brett goes to bed the phones go off and the tape goes on. In order to stay sane and get on with the day-to-day tasks I have found this to be a godsend. My plan like any habit is to drop it even if it’s only alternate days to see if I can get by without my ‘fix’ today is one of those days!
So my message for today and the coming year is to take time out for the things you enjoy. Reading, writing, creating, cooking or just sitting quietly with a cuppa.
Here’s to 2009 and all it may bring :-)
Monday, 22 December 2008
some might say.
When it finally gets
to Christmas day.
In the blink of the eye
its over and done.
All our hard work
been and gone.
Nothing to do.
Nowhere to go.
Time to chill out
and avoid the snow.
It’s always fun.
But in the blink of the eye
it’s over and done.
Michelle, Senta, Fannie, Alicia, i award you the most fun and supportive of my fellow bloggers and when i get time i will make up a little award that you can add to your blog should you so wish :-) Michelle i hope you get your little package slip through the door before your big day, hope you have a Happy Birthday my friend x
Friday, 12 December 2008
That brings with it a wealth of cheer.
Fires glowing all around,
as the snow falls on the ground.
Presents wrapped under the tree.
Are they for you, or are they for me?
Close your eyes and keep them tight,
as the magic of Christmas appears through the night.
One thing I ask you not to forget.
There wasn’t a single room to let.
In a stable there they found,
a baby boy lay on the ground.
So when you’re counting down the days.
Don’t let the true meaning of Christmas fade.
As you open that very last door,
who knows what this Christmas holds in store.
I won ‘Reach’ original ACEO collage by Nancy Lefko, it is a lovely star. I am chuffed to bits you made my day again Fannie :-)
Thursday, 4 December 2008
It would be to turn back time.
When children believed in Santa Claus,
and the day’s of Auld Lang Sine.
When snow fell like a blanket,
creating a winter wonderland.
And the melodic tunes of this festive time.
Were created by the band.
When the fairy in all her glory,
stood proud at the top of the tree.
And kept watch over all the presents,
that lay in wait for you and me.
A magical time spent with loved one.
Everyone happy and gay.
As we celebrate the birth of Jesus.
On this his special day.
But things have changed a bit
now you will see.
Although the memories
have not escaped me.
Perhaps if we try a bit harder.
We can make it a reality.
I have my moments but the last week or so I have been observing the signs!
For some while now my life has been topsy-turvy to say the least. I have moments of ‘Happiness’ like when the snow came unexpectedly a few weeks back but mostly I just muddle along trying to put things in order. In my life, my marriage, my home. Of late things have been harder than ever and I have felt at a complete loss as to know how to fix things.
So a week ago today my husband and I dropped Brett at nursery having changed his day and went to Coventry Christmas shopping. We met my mother-in-law and enjoyed our few hours cut short by my impending indulgence evening. That day we got on and got some things done. My signs for the day were that having been in close proximity to ladies with babies and been quite teary something is still tucked away regarding the loss of time spent with my baby when he was younger. My PTSD/PND and OCD took that time away from us. Having held my friends baby recently I don’t thing I actually want another baby. My bonus for the morning was buying a book for my niece and using the points I had collected which paid for all but a £1.
The weekend was enjoyable. We were out with friends, the ladies and gentlemen that we met when we all had our children. 3 years on us ladies still meet and our Christmas get together was husbands too. We did secret Santa and one of the ladies got us a voucher for the cinema with a baby-sitting offer thrown in, a very thoughtful gift. Sunday was spent with family as my mother and father-in-law are off to see my sister-in-law in New Zealand for the next 2/3 months. We will miss them.
On Monday I walked my son to nursery, it was really cold but somehow refreshing. I felt quite positive and Christmas was on my mind. It was such a pleasant feeling. Brett was well behaved all day!
Typically as I write this I can’t remember all the signs that came my way this week. I treated myself to a bottle of mulled wine and mince pies at Marks and Spencers with a voucher I was given almost exactly 3 years ago. By the end of Monday one of my fellow bloggers had given me an award for my blog, thank you Fannie J you can see (I hope) where I am going with this. I was really thinking someone or something; maybe even ME is giving me/us a break. I found myself saying hello or making polite chitchat with people I don’t know. Mum commented yesterday during shopping at the amount of people Brett had made smile with his entertaining personality. Anyway I could go on but I hope by now some of my signs have rubbed off or atleast made you look or to be more precise OBSERVE the signs, they are all around you and there for the taking :-)
Friday, 21 November 2008
So here we go. Sometimes we are told to observe signs and maybe this is one for me!
As a lucky or unlucky number
Eight (八; accounting 捌; pinyin bā) is considered a lucky number in Chinese culture because it sounds like the word "prosper" or "wealth" (發(T) 发(S); Pinyin: fā).
In numerology, 8 is the number of building, and in some theories, also the number of destruction.
In Astrology, Scorpio is the 8th astrological sign of the Zodiac
In the middle ages, 8 was the number of "unmoving" stars in the sky, and symbolized the perfectioning of incoming planetary energy
Taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/8_(number)
I guess i just could have been fortunate to have found my lucky 8 mushroom, lucky i hadn't ate it lol!
This is part of a '12 Sacred Days Of Yule' reading i am having and how uncanny that this was part of todays reading!
Eight Of Pentacles - The Eight of Pentacles refers to a time of hard work and dedication on the material realm, in the hopes of improving your work and yourself at the same time. It shows a need for patience, commitment, and dedication in order to achieve success. The Eight can be a sign of commitment and dedication to a relationship, or genuine interest in learning new skills. There is a spiritual side to this card as well. Often the man on the Eight of Pentacles is pictured as an apprentice learning a new skill. Like the Hermit, he seeks knowledge, and sometimes this wisdom will be of the spiritual sort. There is an alchemical energy to this card in that it seems to mix science with magic and may be telling you that you need to blend the two to create something unique and special in your circumstances or within yourself.
The Eight Of pentacles also sends the message that the efforts you are putting towards a dream or goal are well worth it and will be successful so don't give up just yet. You are nearing the end results. It may be difficult but the experience you will gain will be valuable in your future. Watch for someone more experienced that you who may be willing to gave you assistance; every apprentice needs a master to guide them towards greatness whether it relates to career, home, spiritual practices, or self growth. Never take your eyes off the goal.
If a job is once begun, never leave until it's done. Be the labour great or small, do it well - or not at all".
Thursday, 20 November 2008
1) Much like Senta I grew up with an unusual name, Kerridwen! When I was little I got really fed up with explaining how it was pronounced, spelt and where it came from. It is Welsh although usually spelt with a C. Now as a grown up I love having an unusual name.
2) I am now a full time mum to Brett. He will be three in January. He is charming and loving, exhausting and from time to time a complete pain in the … But I wouldn’t be without him. He keeps me amused with his renditions of Michael Jackson's ‘Thriller’, Pinks ‘So What’ and currently Human Leagues ‘Don’t you want me baby’. The futures X Factor star!
3) I write poetry. As a youngster at school I don’t’ recall having much interest in poetry but probably wrote my first poem around that time. Recently I typed them all out onto the PC and printed them off and then laminated them to protect them. Now they’re all in a folder and I have just over thirty, almost one for every year of my life. I hope next year to ‘Blurb’ them and have my own collection.
4) I have an interest in ghosts, messages and visits from beyond the grave. Strangely I think I developed this curiosity at quite a young age. Mum has a book called ‘Folklore Myths and Legends’ and I remember many a time spent browsing the articles of unexplained happenings. Still to this day I am fascinated by the prospect that those passed over may still exist in ours or parallel universe.
5) I have a cat called Willow. She is black with (when relaxed) Siamese blue eyes. She is extremely affectionate. Some have said a ‘Witches’ cat!
6) I am an OCD sufferer. I don’t think I have always had this, infact I know I haven’t. After having my son I suffered from PND/PTSD and OCD tagged along for the ride. I have to say it doesn’t rule me now. I still have some OCD habits but most of the emotional attachment and need for control has faded. You can live it and SURVIVE it!
7) My favourite time of year has to be winter. You may question why, the most obvious reason is it’s the festive season, goodwill to all ladies and gentlemen. I love the idea of closing the curtains, switching on my fairy lights and tree and enjoying a glass of mulled wine.
Merry Christmas to all…
So there you have it, seven things you probably never knew about me…
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Thursday, 13 November 2008
It could well be up to four or five years later and I am still great friends with Glenys and she is infact my sons ‘Fairy’ Godmother. She has been there for me through some really hard times. Originally I went for regular treatment sessions; nowadays I go for the occasional (many thanks to Glenys) complimentary session. Glenys talks through any previous problems I have had and will check my chakras for any imbalances. When people as me about chakras I liken them to cogs on a grandfather clock, with time they become less mobile or fluid and that affects the general working condition of the clock or in our case body. Glenys has also used crystals which relate to certain conditions. These are placed comfortably on certain parts of the body or chakra points. The energy is channelled through the Reiki practitioner’s hands and applied to the client. This is usually something you can feel, heat or tingling sensations but can vary from person to person. Glenys works over the entire body via a sequence of points. It is very relaxing although I have yet to fall asleep.
I am all for trying alternative therapies and would highly recommend anyone to try it. Why not combine some relaxation ‘me time’ with the ‘Natural Healing Art of Reiki’.
Monday, 10 November 2008
A wise old bird once said.
While for the most part it was visions of sugar plums
that danced round in her head!
This is the first time i have attempted 'Illustration Friday' and while i guess this is not technically and illustration it is my interpretation. An owl, ok not original but the words came first and it was a choice of bird or a old but cute fairy. I have managed to pull this off with my son distracting me every which way he can. Normally he would sleep but not today and normally i wouldn't even attempt putting the card together or trying to update my blog while he is around. A feet in itself.Hope you like it.
Thursday, 6 November 2008
Today someone remarked on me being ‘so talented’.
How do you see yourself?
I am 38, married with an almost three-year-old son. We rent our home and have been here 8 years. My entire working life so far has been training and working as a hairdresser up until 3 years ago. I have qualifications in Indian head massage, gel nails, make-up and one or two others. Some I intended to make use of others I did for pleasure. My hobbies in the past have included photography and jewellery making, glass painting and probably one or two others I’ve forgotten. Oh yeah singing, I had singing lessons too but packed them in during the run up to our wedding. Nowadays I still like to express myself whether it be writing, children’s stories, an adult piece I have unfinished, poetry or by making cards, or helping Brett with his ‘spotting’ and adding to his scrapbook. I never really saw myself as a parent although I couldn't imagine never having children either. Under the circumstances I think I/we are doing a fairly decent job of bringing up our son.
I don’t think of myself as ‘Talented’ although I can recognise that I have a talent that enables me to write and create and see the beauty in other people’s creations. Sometimes we need the reassurances of others that we are good at what we do and sometimes one remark can make the difference between persevering and feeling discouraged. So thanks for stopping by, spending time here with my words and pictures and thanks to those that leave comments, it’s always good to read your thoughts :-)
Tuesday, 28 October 2008
I’m not sure how long it had been going but one of my friends had mentioned it on their Facebook status. I looked out of the window and then rushed to the front door where Brett and I observed the fluffy flakes falling from the sky. I text several friends and left a comment in reply to my friends status and headed back to the front door and called my husband to let him know. It wasn’t snowing in Milton Keynes, not even wet which we had already had. I tried taking pictures but snow moves quite fast so I’m not sure it did it any justice.
For a time there was an element of excitement and anticipation. Quite a few status messages appeared reflecting the change in weather. Would it settle, for a time it seemed possible but eventually it slowed and turned.
I do love snow. I’m not entirely sure why, I can only think it’s some childhood memory that sparkles along with the flakes. My thoughts turned to snowmen, building them, drawing them and then to ‘Shivery Snowman’, ‘Cringle Christmas Tree’, and ‘Mistletoe Mouse’. Three imaginary characters that came to be maybe even twelve months ago while doodling with Brett. Very quickly these three characters came to life, in words at least. I need to practice more with my pencil before they come to life in that form but I unleashed another future publication or another story to add to my growing collection.
Will share my first adventure when I get a mo!!!
Thursday, 23 October 2008
My impression had always been that Warwick was full of antique shops but much to my surprise there seemed to be a large number of beauty shops and several bridal shops for what seems to be a small town. We wandered round and found ourselves at the entrance to Warwick Castle but we will save that for another day.
The colours of autumn were everywhere and so i was constantly snapping away with my camera. Brett enjoyed a bit of freedom and i enjoyed a change of scenery.
Wednesday, 22 October 2008
Brett was at Pre-school and mum was picking him up. As it turned out it was only a small gathering, two of us infact. Me, Delia and Maria, the tutor for want of a better word. We were to explore the world of die cut paper dolls using various pieces of equipment. I think I reverted back to my childhood. It was such fun cutting out bodies and choosing different papers, I was in my element.
I have never felt any enthusiasm about die cut machines but in a very short space of time could see the potential. Delia was exploring all avenues, male and female, jeans jumpers etc etc. I was quite happy with my girl dolls and dresses. Infact in the hour and a half we mass produced many items and never actually completed a project but went home with some cards, a wardrobe of clothes and hair and some inspiration. Good fun
Monday, 20 October 2008
It’s been three and a half days I’ve been without my broadband. One minute I had it the next I didn’t. My PC and Internet is my lifeline to the outside world. My time is spent flitting backwards and forwards, checking my messages, on Facebook, updating my blog and taking time to admire other people’s works of art or reading their thoughts. Quite honestly some of he nicest people I know are or were complete strangers I’ve met on the net. I wouldn’t be without them or my connection to the WWW!
Thursday, 16 October 2008
Wednesday, 15 October 2008
This is my first serious attempt at a bird and a bunny and i can see that with practice i can only get better...
Tuesday, 14 October 2008
Monday, 13 October 2008
Sunday, 12 October 2008
This is a word, amongst others that I came across recently when reading a new blog http://fanniecarte.blogspot.com/2008/10/magical-wip-completed.html
It’s an interesting word ‘Magic’, what is the first thing you think of when you hear the word ‘Magic’?
For me it’s about fairies, wizards and sparkles, beautiful Christmas lights on trees, snow laden trees that sparkle against cold wintry skies, intricate snowflakes that dance out of the sky.
There is also 'Magic' in the bond between me and my son. An invisible cord that binds us. The 'Magic' when he gives me a big hug or tells me I have ‘beautiful hair’ or plants a kiss on my nose
At the beginning I included a description of the word ‘Magic’ according to the Cambridge Dictionary ‘The use of special powers’, maybe it takes special powers to see the ‘Magic’ in our surroundings. ‘to make things happen which would normally be impossible’, I guess almost anything is possible if you truly believe. ‘such as in stories for children’. Well as far as I’m concerned ‘Magic’ in children’s stories is crucial as is ‘Faith’ and ‘Hope’. The world is full of scary things, things I’m sure I didn’t worry about as a child. I loved nothing more than visiting the lands at the top of the Faraway Tree or following Moomintroll as he investigated Moominland during the depths of winter.
Where is the ‘Magic’ in your part of the world and what can you benefit from observing a bit of it?
Friday, 10 October 2008
Thursday, 25 September 2008
1) At the end of September/beginning of October sit down and write a list of all those that you intend to buy presents for.Give yourself an idea of how much you can afford to spend and try and stick to it (after all it's the thought that counts!).
If you have ideas of gifts then make a note of them. If you have nieces and nephews or grandchildren that you intend to buy clothes for check what size they are now wearing as it doesn't always correspond to age. Make two copies of this list, one for you handbag and one for your records and for when the other one goes walk about. Make a note of any other ideas you have as you go along and tick off those that you have bought.
Most of all enjoy it. There is no written rule (in my opinion) that says you have to buy everything or spend lots of money.Sometimes the most insignificant gift can turn out to be the most thoughtful or useful gift. Last Christmas my friend bought Brett some Thomas wellies, day in and day out rain or shine Brett wore his wellies until one day he must have caught the bin in his bid to tidy them and we ended up with one welly. They are as you can imagine back on her Christmas list again.
Saturday, 20 September 2008
Thursday, 18 September 2008
Brett played but not without my assistance. We both had a go on the horse. Brett flitted back and forth from swings to climbing frame and back again. Why i thought i would be able to leave him to it I'll never know. Eventually we were joined by another mother and her almost two year old daughter. It's amazing what you can find out about someone in a very short space of time.
Eventually Brett and I headed off but it wasn't long before i stopped to look for conkers for Brett. I managed to find quite a few some of which were still in their cases.
Brett played in the bandstand and i took some pictures of the mushrooms and one of the big tall trees.
On route to the park i had noticed Rupert Brooke's home, something i had never seen before even though i know he has a connection with Rugby.
What do you see when you're out and about? It's amazing what is sometimes right under your nose.
Autumn is definitely here, it was surprisingly cold but i love this time of year :-)
Friday, 18 July 2008
So who will be my 500th visitor? I am hoping whoever you are you will sign my guestbook to mark the occasion. I hope in time to get back to more regular entries, it's therapeutic to put your thoughts down and be able to express yourself in a productive manor. I have had several entries that as yet haven't found their way from my pad but hopefully in time they will. So come in no.500, your time is up!
Tuesday, 24 June 2008
Friday, 28 March 2008
I went in to have an ovarian, Dermoid cyst removed from my left ovary with the possibility of loosing my left ovary. I guess this was to be a fairly routine op but for some reason i was really worried, not so much about the op but the anesthetic. I guess my biggest fear was not coming round from it for whatever reason. I had been worrying about it since i was first informed about it in the run up to Christmas but basically told to go home and not worry about it.
So the 5th March came and i needed to be at the hospital for 11.30. I was told that my husband wouldn't be able to stay with me or be there when i came round, encouraging! I was the last one on the list and so had even longer to worry about it.
I agreed to have a pre-med in the hopes that it would help, not sure that it did. Jason, fortunately stayed with me until i went down which was after 4 from what i remember.
The anesthetist asked me on my arrival whether the pre-med had helped, i wasn't sure. I was still worried. We (the anesthetist and some other overalls) discussed the state of my dry hands while they tried to find a vein. Eventually they managed to hook me up and gave me the mask and told me to breath deeply, it was a warm and wobbly sensation and i guess i was gone.
Don't remember much else, vaguely remember seeing two girls around me but must have gone back to sleep. Don't even remember coming round as such. Just remember being in a different room amongst strangers one of which was sitting very relaxed in the corner reading a magazine. I was very uncomfortable.
As it turns out i had two cysts removed, one on either side and kept my ovary. I gather they couldn't get to one via key hole so they had to go through my c section scar which is why i was in so much pain.
I ended up being in almost four day's in all due to i guess it not being so routine. It was hard being away from home and even harder being away from Brett and hoping he would understand.
So as i say three weeks have been and gone. I've recovered, i feel surprisingly quickly although my stomach or digestive system is still recovering but that's anti-biotics for you. I am very glad to be here although it's been hard taking it easy with an active two year old.
Still waiting for my dissolvable stitches to dissolve!!! Onwards and upwards from here on in,. Life has been on hold for one reason or another for long enough.
Wednesday, 9 January 2008
What a lovely day, was had by one and all.
On Sunday 6th January I was proud to stand tall.
Our little baby boy was two, going on three according to some.
We got together to enjoy each others company
and have some fun.
It wasn’t about the PRESENTS,
but the PRESENCE of those who came.
To celebrate the BIRTH - Day of our son.
Brett by name.
So ‘Thank you’ all for coming,
for the gifts you came a-bearing.
But most of all a ‘Thank you’,
for the time you came a-sharing.